🔗 Share this article Excruciating Agony: A Personal Fight Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome It was a gloomy weekday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp sensation erupted behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid jolts, like lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater intensity. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting. The headaches returned repeatedly that autumn, and again in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder. This condition typically start with severe pain around a single eye that persists for three hours. About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, excruciating agony around a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have continuous attacks, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods. What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure dropped to four percent when they were pain-free. Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things worse. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home. Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center. Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet. Headaches have been described throughout history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the disease to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads. Ancient medical records propose bizarre remedies for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies. It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”. Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by global headache societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery which delivers blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the condition note this. In 1998, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered. In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician researched his symptoms. Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary headache disorders, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough history is essential: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies. A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack passed. National guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known people. But leading specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with acute treatment alone. Longer or more intense bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity. The official guidance need updating to reflect a